旅貓日記

這是一篇被遺忘了的網誌草稿，應該也有兩年之久。還記得那段時間重新到圖書館借書(包括這一本)，前後還看了夏目漱石的＂我是貓＂和另一本，川村元氣的＂如果這世界貓消失了＂，三本貓書，各有特色。

我喜歡貓，因為她們有個性，尤其耳朵呈三角形的短嘴貓；她們形態優美，悠然自得，不會隨便驚動你，除非她感覺到你喜歡她，而此刻她也想和你在一起。 

看旅貓日記，要預備一盒紙巾…主人翁因為一個原因，帶着小貓展開幾次探訪之旅，昔日的朋友，單戀對象…目的是為她尋找新居，看看她喜不喜歡新主人及環境。一次又一次的旅程，也換起主人翁的記憶與思念; 即使貓咪仍未有最終決定，無奈分別的時間已到.… 當你明白原由之際，貓咪選擇了她自己的想法…

已經是兩年前的閲讀，我已忘記主人翁及貓貓的名字，也忘記是三次或共四次的旅程，但此刻仍然記得那份着急、不捨和無奈的心情；同樣地，代入貓兒的角色，你確實會有另一個打算，不是為著自己的去向，而是對方，你所記掛的人/或貓！

結局如何，如常地留待你去經歷…旅程，仍是要繼續…

The History of Modern France

 

The History of Modern France

It's been a while for me to introduce some reading from my book shelf recently. Here is what I've got from a book store...by chance!

 

I walked in my leisure momentum towards Festival Walk in a sunny day, looking for a language grammar book, but it seems it's more & more difficult for me to find what I wanted in small book shop, unless I go to those super huge chain store...which I am not really enjoy. 

 

Due to the limited shop space to keep the stock, I thought I would leave in empty hands, but suddenly this book caught my eyes. Voila, I really need this, a quick review at the back cover and paid; a similar feeling of joy and excitement as I've bought The Fox and The Star .

I am not familiar with History of any country except a bit more of Hong Kong, of course. It's always be my most headache subject when I was a student, never pass in my exams. But I will be triggered to search the history of some countries after certain readings such as the memoir of a specific person, a trip, a painting or a story...when I grown up.

To have a glance of the history of France can be easily found online, but as usual, history can be boring if the writer mess it up; and on the other hand extremely attractive that leads the reader to view in wider angle , this book belongs to the latter. 

When I read through the details and have a bit more understanding to the background of the formation of Modern France, the Fifth Republic since the First Revolution, the "looping" of political, economic, basic human needs, or desires... all counted. Leading of the influx of immigrant, complicity of the social problems...after the vanished of the Monarchy & the "glorious" period of Napoleon's Empire.... facing the terrorist attacks in the modern age, again bearing the history that weight.

I continue to research more regarding the French National Symbols: the Cockerel and the Tri-color National Flag; the history of French Jews...A lot to explore, a lot more way for us to introspect, for all of our own countries, too. 

Thank you, Mr. Jonathan Fenby.

 

 

Transparent Integrity

 

Whenever a sunny day, there is always a wonderful moment in the afternoon for light to play with shadow, they attracts me, so I stop working to join them for a while, usually not a while but long enough for me to think of something that we've missed like...transparent integrity!

I forget where have I learned these wordings from, a book may be; but they were written on a post-it which pinned on my notice board since 2016. The shadow play in this afternoon reminds me of it, the transparency that has to be as crystal clear as this, I think, as a person, a human being...

I wish I won't lost mine!

做個放下的設計師

2021年4月18日，星期日，晴，11:00 a.m.

 

將最後一個地盤handover 俾客人，係最後一個，正式係我卅多年嘅室內設計生涯劃上一個句號！離開地盤嗰一刻實在有唔少感觸，不過同時又有D輕鬆、興奮同迷惘嘅感覺，心情都好複雜吓；畢竟係畢業之後第一份同唯一一份職業。

呢個收爐計劃始於2017年(乜咁早？)，係呀！我嘅壞習慣，因為大決定我一定要一個較長嘅過渡期。仲記得當時好友勸我，駛乜咁決絕話唔接就唔接(室內設計工作)？又唔係冇經濟需要，接吓D相關嘅工作，例如淨係做設計，唔做地盤；又或者做畫圖都可以吖…

老實講，如果你都係行內人，你一定會明白，做室內設計係冇得做D唔做D嘅，尤其我又唔係乜嘢出名大公司。而且淨係做一部份，個成品係好難做得完整嘅…你明啦！更重要嘅係，唔完全放低，就冇辨法係人生下半場開始另一個新體驗~畫公仔書。

2017年基本上已經開始做半職設計師，同步兼職教書；係2019年正式開始畫公仔書，一切由頭學起。最諷刺嘅係我越係準備引退就繼續有客，結果都係堅持只接親戚朋友屋企，限時至2021年一月一日為止(原定時間)…終於總算勉強如願。

人生就係咁㗎啦，唔決絕就會拖拖拉拉，搞不好到死嗰一日又話有D乜乜物物心願未了云云…其實乜嘢都係自己決定；我好清楚＂了結＂咗我嘅專業會換嚟乜嘢，有好有壞，有可以或唔可以承擔嘅狀況…不過好肯定嘅係…無悔！(加，唔能夠唔承認嘅不安全感)。

如果你問我，咁而家寫網誌呢一刻已經差唔多＂收山＂左大半個月有多，係唔係好寫意咁畫緊公仔書，享受人生呢？梗係…唔係啦！只可以話係正式開始斜槓族嘅低/冇收入生涯，希望七月份會有個暢順D嘅工作流程啦。不過今日，我已經冇唔捨得離開我嘅事業嗰個感覺(雖然有時仲諗緊以後填表要係職業嗰欄度寫乜？)，反而係呢段短短嘅時間裏面，除咗順利完成第六本公仔書之外，

我又唔經唔覺咁重拾放低咗好耐嘅平面設計，哈哈！雖然係義工，不過真係超級＂大滿足＂。

所以世事難料，鼓起勇氣離開安舒區，為自已編織新一頁，呢一刻，仍然期待！

我與布魯塞爾的距離

今天終於有些時間，坐下來靜靜地寫網誌。翻查觀看香港國際電影節的網誌，原來並沒有寫第43th 及44th界的紀錄，回想一下，為什麼呢？還記得在第43th和朋友一起看由Robert De Niro 及Gérard Depardieu 在大館上映的1900 ，上下集全長五個多小時；再加一套The Eyes of Orson Welles, 也似乎我是有打算為它們寫一篇觀後感的，因為圖片也預備好，而兩套戲也實在好看.…不過，應該是＂忘記鳥＂足足兩年多😅

而第44th 呢？應該是因Covid-19 而取消了。 今年，HKIFF45雖然有實體場，我還是在網上購票觀看，也只選了這一套 Ghost Tropic (Director: Bas Devos)；不知是否因為疫情關係，多少也影響了片源，能吸引我的不多；幸好沒有失手，又是一套好戲。

 

由 Saadia Bentaïeb 主演的一個中年穆斯林婦人，因為夜班工作在回程的布魯塞爾尾班車上睡過頭，結果要步行回家。一小時廿五分的劇情，差不多全由主角一手包辦；全套戲稀有的對白，夜靜的街角，便利店，大宅，醫院…遇見的人、物、狗… 隨着燈光、場景、配樂，彷如置身其中，和 Khadija (主角名字)一起在寒冷的夜空中遊走，很靜，很靜… 感受她的疲憊、失望、關注、擔憂、無奈、放下…

當她終於疲累地回到住所，我的思絮仍被＂今夜＂發生的一切事情牽動著，良久…才入睡，但天色已是魚肚白！

愛美麗狂想曲

"行者無疆、始於足下" ~ 何等令人嚮往!

昨晚剛剛播完大結局的愛美麗狂想曲, 是一套整體上營造了一個"夢幻世界"而令人產生無限幻想的電視劇. 失婚婦人為生計重投社會工作, 認識了一班中產階級, 互相構建了一些理想和感情線. 中產公關、國際級CEO、, 富二代、畫家、作家… 咖啡店、畫廊、酒吧、甜品店… 

不羈的"浪漫"最終, 主角由"師奶仔"脫變成旅遊攝影作家, 發揮潛能, 實現夢想!

已經好一段日子沒有值得我花時間追蹤的電視劇了, 四十五分鐘讓我稍為逃離現實, 帶我進入似乎認識卻又有點陌生的世界, 再折返人間. 我是一個可以很專注又投入劇情/電影情節的觀眾, 因為這樣才能嚐到劇中人物所感, 從而進入另外一個時空, 這是我享受的。

現實中, 全球處於不平衡的狀態之下, 先別說追夢, 單是求生, 在這一兩年變得格外困難. 不論是香港、緬甸、印度、美國、歐洲… 或許正因如此, 這套電視劇帶回一些久違了的"美好時光" - Belle Époque! 在每一個人心中, 總會有或曾經有憧憬, 應該會是美好的一面罷, 即使在此時此刻的現實中難以成就, 我想, 還是該先藏於心底, 誰知有一天不會如王麗美(劇中女主角)般"重生"呢?

雖然你或許會說王麗美之所以能重生, 畢竟在際遇上遇到兩位愛慕她的伯樂; 但不能否認的是在失意時, 她只是有限度地停留在傷痛和自憐的境况; 在沒有自信時接受朋友的鼓勵, 很快可以振作起來重新出發; 在迷惘時, 仍能理性地作出一些重要的決定… 改變現况, 始終離不開一些自強和樂觀面對的特質, 但願住在地球村的我們, 無論處於那一個國度, 面對着什麼困境, 仍能譜出屬於你的"狂想曲".

Sing Hallelujah to the Lord

 

I am in the Sacré-Cœur, walking around, admiring the grande architecture, huge organ above...then an “angel” voice awoke me....click to listen

Hallelujah hallelujah
   Hallelujah hallelujah
Hallelujah hallelujah....

(Sorry for the noise in the background, feel the volume of the interior...isn’t it amazing?)

Open my eyes in a panic mode, I am already trapped or better say I was buried by a crowded of tourist from my “motherland” simply because they squeeze for a glance to the priest who will start the mass quite soon. A few ladies notice my shock, although I’m sure I can see from their eyes, they are a bit of embarrass & feel sorry to interrupt but, my best viewing angle is absolutely un-replaceable, so I am totally “under-covered” within the next two minutes.

I am not sure whether I should force to escape but at the same time I do feel embarrassment, too, because Hong Kong had already returned to China, therefore.... you know what I mean :P , but miracle happens, I close my eyes, besides of

Hallelujah  hallelujah

Hallelujah hallelujah

Hallelujah hallelujah....

Nothing more but peace & joy, that’s all.
A moment that I’ll never forget, a gift from God! Hallelujah!

Back to the angel voice, I just can’t stop to hear more & more, one voice after the others...I was “trapped”! There is mass ready to be carried out, so I sit down on the bench nearby, bow down my head, close my eyes, listen to the lovely voice, so tranquil & peaceful...so...so...”Dark”!!! I am short of my breath...